Looking Things Over

[I saw the movie and heard this earlier today, simply beautiful]

Why does it seem that the more you try to make sense of things the more convoluted they appear. I've had a lot of time to myself over the past few months; I've been doing a lot of introspection and going over all these things in my head. At times I find myself feeling hopeful and other times feeling overwhelmed. Its not that I feel scared or worried; its just that Im going into the unknown and facing realities and uncertainties and I feel lost.

Not that I've lost my way or that Im in the wrong place. But lost, as in not here.

Lost

I've asked myself all of those self doubting questions and I've already been reassured that I will be ok. This isn't about school or work. What this is, is something else. I know I have what it takes and I know everything will "be alright"; its just the other things in life that have me so shook.  My problems are real, yet I cant describe what they are.

Its like I'm missing a piece of me, but I dont know what it is. How can I look for it, when I dont know what I'm looking for.... Either way, when I find it I know I'll feel whole again.

 Its just the most odd feeling in the world, to not feel whole.