Vaina = stuff

I got to be at the hospital at 8 in the morning, but before i go to bed I was just gonna post some cool stuff.

I got the new Ryan Leslie, its dope. I think he improved on the stuff he did wrong on his debut and came through on this one. Its pretty solid, i gotta give it a good listen to, but from what i heard its the biznas.Imeem has an exclusive preview of the whole CD.

http://www.imeem.com/ryanleslie/playlist/0XAcY0yz/transition-music-playlist/

Another thing that's been on my mind is the fact that my bro and his wife get to go back to France. She hasn't been back home since the wedding. I know its been hard for her, so Im so excited for them to go back. They should be there about 3 weeks so she should get a healthy dose of home. I'll post my favorite Paris inspired songs in the next post.

And finally i just gotta say how good jah is. God comes through when you dont even know you need him. The outcome of such a random even three years ago just came to fruition this past week and the result was a pretty nice windfall coming my way. Im extremely happy and feeling amazingly blessed that the plata is coming my way right now. I've been wondering how i was gonna get a new computer and handle some other biz but then this came totally outta left field. So i am officially gonna start my travel/interview account after i get my new laptop.

so ya boy is doing A-okay. 12 hour Saturday call is gonna be a pooper tomorrow, but I think i can manage. Ya know its funny, for some reason people have been get this really upbeat and chipper vibe from me. I mean, i generally am in a better mood, but I really dont TRY to act any kinda way. It apparently just comes. Maybe its the way I approach things and carry myself. The best thing is that all this is even before the money. I feel even better that I got these compliments/comments, so i guess im doing something right, and at the end of the day isnt that the best thing to do with your day; make others feel good or just give people a better day with a smile or joke or kind word. So yeah I guess it seems I'm doing REALLY good lol

i really gotta roll over and sleep.
so...
buenas noches and all that jazz
Julian

Old school

Nadine, Nadine Nadine!!!

Hazey

Driving back home for lunch break i was thinking about topics for this ethics paper. I didn't want to pick a topic that everyone and their mama was doing, but I had basically conceded all hope and was gonna do my report on prolonging life. I like the topic, don't get me wrong, but I just didn't want to pick the topic because we already had a group discussion and I didn't want my report to blend in. I also have a pretty good opinion and for some [dumb] reason i wanted to expand my mind with something I haven't really thought about...

anyway, I was listening to NPR and heard Kojo Nnamdi on the radio. This dude is the truth and once again his show came through. He had people on air talking about medical marijuana and how Attorney General Eric Holder doesn't want federal courts to prosecute people with medical marijuana. Its funny how the idea for the paper came, because before I was even thinking about using it as a topic, i was making ethical arguments on what good does it do and why would people really need it. So yeah, That's my topic and hopefully with my research I can come to a true informed stance on the matter and get a good grade too lol

aight, back to literature searching

Soles of Fire

http://thefader.cachefly.net/soles-of-fire.mp3

Yup yup

Lucky Me

I was on amazon.com, just looking around, and i typed the word Panama and found something that made my heart smile. Last year i bought a compilation CD of music from panama called Panama! Latin Sounds, Cumbia Tropical & Calypso Funk on the Isthmus. I loved that CD cause it basically encompassed most of the genres of music that I love. Well I found the Second volume to that Compilation tonite and i got the Mp3 download for like 8 bucks. So im pretty happy bout that. I also found a book that i wanna get for my mom. Its a story book for kids [shes a teacher], its a Panamanian folktale called Conejito. I think She'll really like it, since she integrates spanish into her class room and she loves her patria. Well I guess Im off to bed.

buenas noches

Julian

wawa wee wa

Paula Patton

my my my...

Trifecta of Soul

Hathaway covering Lennon = NICE

good nite

Nature Boy

!!!

i found a great site yesterday. Its an online mens magazine dedicate to cool stuff and links to get them.They all types of stuff, from a card board tube fighting league to the new toms cordones [which i'm probly gonna get]. This joint is a one stop for tons of cool web stuff.

Score!

http://www.uncrate.com/

5 hot things for Octubre

I cant believe its friggin near the end of October....

Where did the friggin time go? Dios mio, I feel like it was just friggin July and here we go again... I cant believe how soon 2010 is gonna be upon us. Im excited and scared [as usual lol] cause I know that 2010 is gonna be one of the biggest years for me, to date. I've grown so much this year, im excited to see how far i will have come this time next year. I plan on doing a lot of learning and setting things up for the future next year so watch out for big things...

ok back to the list lol

-Music-

I am so torn. This week the new twilight CD came out. I Hate the twilight "saga". Its some dumb lame fad that apparently came outta nowhere and swept the world by storm. I guess in a kinda high school musical way. I never heard anything about it and then one day, this shit blew up. Well anyway, i will not see the movie but I think Im gonna buy the soundtrack. Its got too many dope cuts to pass up, and besides i bought CDs for less good songs anyways

-Book-

lol no fun reading time now. Im kickin it with Kaplan USMLE step 2 pediatrics lol

-Shoes-

I want some boots for the winter, though i dont know how sound that purchase would be, seeing as how i dont spend much time away from the hospital and i probly wont get much wear outta them at the hospital. But anyways, i want a kinda rugged yet refined boot. So im probly gonna get some from LLBEAN. They got some pretty cool stuff and I think Ima get some dark brown ones. If not i'll probly jus get some toms for my scrub work

-Clothing-

I think Im gonna try getting away with wearing nice sweaters sans a tie this winter with my white coat. I sometimes get sick of always wearing a tie, especially on those long days where you dont leave for like 10 or so hours. It just feels more practical.

I like some J.crew sweaters I saw but maybe I'll keep looking and find some with unique details or something.

-LIFE-

I know earlier I wrote about being ethical and doing the right thing. And once today we got chewed out once again for people being slack on the rotation. Im just going to say from here on Im done. Im going to do my part and if that means picking up the slack then whatever, at the end of the day Im gonna be that much better and I will know that much more. Adults are gonna do what they want and sometimes they may seem to get away with stuff, but things always even out in the end. People get what they deserve, so im just gonna keep doing the right thing, in the face of whatever these people throw at me cause It can only make me better.

ok Im feeling a bit under the weather so let me get ready for bed.

peace&love

Julian

when is enough enough?

I am not a perfect man. I never EVER claimed to be. But there are certain things that i try to live up. I am principled and even though sometimes i make bad personal decisions professionally and when it comes to other people, i tend to stick to my guns. If i say im going to do something I will do it. If i say i will be somewhere I try my damnedest to be there ON TIME. And when it comes to school fagetabout it.

I signed for medical school to learn. I want to take in all that I can so I can be the best doctor I can be. I know the importance of be professional and doing the right thing. More than anything that is what my up bringing has instilled in me, do the right thing, follow what i know is right and wrong, do right by people, respect your elders and those in authority, respect yourself, your family and god and represent yourself well. All of these things make this part of medical school run smoother. Cause at the end of the day, if you know ish, and stick to these rules above you should do fine.

Well, not everyone follows said moral standards. They cut corners and always try to find an easy way out. Never taking any responsibility or any ownership in their wrong doings. Someone else is always to blame and its never their fault. I dont know who [or what, for that matter] told them that someone in this world owes them something, cause NOBODY OWES you jack. People run around and think that their shit is so much more important than their fellow mans. They think that their time is SO much more precious than others. With blatant disregard they do wrong just because "they feel like it".

Today I witnessed the culmination of a lot of things that I just dont like. Not to go into that much detail, but basically people fucked up. lol ok thats a little too succinct lol, People didnt hold up their end of the bargain. People dropped the ball and failed their classmates and the clerkship director by not showing up to stuff. And its not that it was that grave an error that we all had to get what we got, its that it was the straw that broke the proverbial camels back.

People have gotten away with murder for too long. People complain that people dont do the right thing, that people are lazy and everyone has an attitude. That you cant get nothing done because people dont do their jobs. But when you have an attended, who can be a bit gruff, who is on their game and who is about business and professionalism, you get grippers. You cant please anyone. How do grown people have the friggin nerve to complain and catch attitude even, when people start to do their jobs and enforce rules that they have been willfully and consistently breaking. Its like when you get a speeding ticket, can you really be mad at the cop if your ass was going 30 over?

The answer is no, and you can try to find any type of excuse or sob story but at the end of the day these are perilous times. We live in a world of accountability and especially going into the field of medicine, you cant cut corners and not be places. Its not just time and convenience that is at stake, its peoples lives and well being that we are dealing with. That one call you skip out on could be life and death for someone. That doctor that you blow off could be the very one fighting to try to get you scrambled into a match [real talk, my first memory of said attending was her working her ass off trying to get people scrambled into residency programs].

so basically im just saying do you job people. In what ever you do, just do it with respect because though you may not care about others and may not even care about how you appear to others. You are a reflection of someone, you didnt make it here by yourself. You never know who or what may cross your path in the future so just do what you must and then worry about all the other stuff later, there is always a time and a place for stuff.

ok rant done... i wish i could print this and hand it out lol

aw well

good night

peace & love

Julian

Yeah...

I am SO gonna read this lol

http://www.gq.com/news-politics/newsmakers/200709/colin-powell-walter-isaacson-war-iraq-george-bush

nite

Weekend round up

Love this song [its where i got the blog name from lol]


Saw Where the Wild Things Are, it was great. Its very different but I loved that about it. I think it was over kids heads, cause as i sat in the movie the kids behind kept askin their mom all these damn questions. I think it was kinda made for my generation. Young adults who remember the book and are young enough to appreciate the imaginary world that Max lived in. It was beautiful, the cinematography and graphics of coarse were good. I also like how real Max was. He wasn't a "hero" hes just a kid with an imagination. The movie was good, i'll have to see it again.

This weekend I fell in love... with my leather jacket. I can see this is the start of a beautiful thing lol

I also have to say that I found a couple blogs that I will probly try to follow, they are "street fashion" blogs, you know the ones, like Thesartorialist, but they aren't nearly as big and they have some pretty cool stuff.

I read the new GQ January Jones interview and she is great. Probly not my exact type or ideal woman, but I like her style. Its cool cause I only know her as Betty Draper, so I liked to see who she really is more beyond Mad Men. Speaking of GQ, i dont think i like their new site. Its too busy and I think they got rid of their little gem of a webshow In the closet, i know, it sounds gay but its not. It was cool, they talked about cool stuff and always had good advice... but what ever que sera sera ...

Im officially halfway through pediatrics so that means i gotta buckle down and read my ass off. I want to do really well on this shelf exam, so Im going to start waking up early again and getting myself together, mind body and soul. I gotta stay focused and kill these last two years of school so i can better my chances for a good residency... where ever that may be [but thats another post for another day]

Last week was surprisingly hard. My parents were away on some Caribbean cruise and i couldn't talk to them for like 10 days. I thought it wouldn't be that bad, but i really did miss them. I guess you never really grow out of that. I missed them and the idea that they were right there a phone call away.

well its cold and getting late. [i know that the cold part is random, i just had to let yall know lol]

so im gonna start winding down so i can get an early jump on tomorrows business.

Hasta luego and good nite

peace&love

Julian

before bed

I LOVE January Jones from Mad Men... She is one bad white girl lol

Fin de Semana wrap up

I bought a bolero CD, Eydie Gorme and Los Panchos, it was like 10 bucks on Amazon for 30 songs so i just bit my lip and bought it. I dont regret my decision. I also found a Donny Hathaway CD that I will buy, there are two songs in particular that I love I Believe in Music and Take a Love Song. They have the feel of that era plus that extra umph that Donny is so good for.

This weekend I also got more accustomed to my phone and even downloaded my desktop black berry manager thing [i love my phone btw]. This weekend I got to watch a little tv while trying to center my self and read all this ethics stuff. I was watching Mystery Diagnosis on discovery health and I got four out of 6 diagnoses before they revealed them. Diaphragmatic hernia and Addisons were my favorite calls. I guess the main thing in medicine is to follow up patients and not lose your investigative spirit. Its hard because sometimes patients are looking for something that is not there, I guess the clinicians job is to be vigilant and discerning enough to see when people are really sick or just malingering. Sometimes the rare diagnosis is the diagnosis, the Zebras show up lol... enough medical stuff

This weekend I also so Good Hair the new Chris Rock movie. All I can say is that I knew, but I didnt know. If you can understand. I understand that some women wear weaves and that some people perm and stuff... I just had no idea it was its own sub-culture. I just find it disturbing that there are women out there who put other peoples hair on their heads. Its kinda hermit crabby if you think about it. I dont and never will, one thing is for sure that I am officially against weaves, and that my future wife will not be using any weave. Maybe its my upbringing and the fact that the women in my life never dealt with any of those probs. Its not that I dont/cant sympathize, but I just dont get the whole weave and spending thousands of dollars on hair and hair stuff. But it is kinda something to think about, the fact that the black hair industry is still run by white people and asians. And as much as i dont really like everyones "natural look" I think its nice that some women do the natural thing.

Time is running fast. I cant believe its mid-term for Ethics already. That means that I am 1.75 years away from my Medical Degree lol. Its weird cause I feel myself becoming a MD every day, from the way i talk, to how i relate to people and approach things. Its very humbling because people put a lot of faith in medical professionals. I have to be on my game and seek knowledge. Lives will be at stake and I will be a community figure with a lot of responsibility. So as great as it sounds, its also very scary that I am inching closer and closer to the end of this phase of the journey. With time comes responsibility, in this field, and i owe it to myself and my patients to be the best I can be...

antes me voy, here is a link to some tracks that leaked from the twilight soundtrack.. I hate that its not gonna be a sucky sound track but whatever, good music is good music]

http://stereogum.com/archives/zomg_new_moon_soundtrack_leaked_094821.html

well its late, and i gotta get my hours in bed so i can be crisp for my first day back at Howard. [I'll miss childrens hospital dearly lol]

Ciao,

Julian

cool stuff

looking at some random stuff earlier today and found some cool miniature work
here is the link to some more: http://iconology.therndm.com/archive/sinkachu/550

Resolution

It official

When i graduate in 2011 I am going on a world tour. I will make a stop in Central America and then a trip to the eastern hemisphere, i wanna go to Western or Southern Africa [havent decided] and then I also want to go to either India or somewhere in the far east. The way I see it, i've played it safe for a while and I really wanna get out and see the world. And since Intern year is gonna be like the worst ever, i figure I better get out and enjoy life before i literally live in a friggin hospital

ok, im going to bed

I really gotta hold myself to this resolution. Maybe I'll open an account, or take out a specific loan just for the trip... i guess I'll figure out logistics later

aight,

peace

Bolero por la noche

I really like trio los panchos. Their old stuff is tan bueno. So for my nightly wind down i listened to a couple songs, this is one i especially liked. No te vayas sin mi = Dont leave without me. I like bolero cause the lyrics are very fanciful by todays standards. Lines like " Amor por favor no te vayas sin mi que no puedo vivir un minuto alejado de ti" Basially saying, My love, please dont leave without me because I cant live a minute far from you. Sounds crazy now, but damn, what kinda love is that lol, cant live a minute...

... ooooh, i almost forgot the buzz of the new Vampire Weekend song, Horchata, its off their new cd coming out in January. I like it, it doesnt have any guitar, but who needs it. I love all the drums and background vocals. I also like Horchata the frosty rice based drink, so its win win lol

enjoy

Nite

Im sorta on the wall about The invention of Lying. It was funny and done very well, i just dont know how i feel about the content. I dont wanna give the movie away, but I'll just say that the look that it took at religion and God was very detached. I personally believe in God and am a Christian, so i was kinda stirred with how they approached it. Im also very objective and have an open mind about alot of things, I belive heartily that people are entitled to their opinions and should have discussion about beliefs.

The way I see religion and God may be somewhat different from the average christian, because a right wing bible totin hate mongering christian conservative I AM NOT. I believe that when it all comes down to it, we are just these transient beings. People live and die and are only around for this short while, in the big scheme of things. We have to do what we can for others and make a positive impact if we want to be remembered or to "live on" in the thoughts and hearts of others. There is also so much out there that we do not cannot and never will understand. Existentially, scientifically and philosophically speaking we dont have all the answers. So we can approach life and God and existence in two ways. We can look at it in a hopeless dreary way and not believe that someone bigger than us has put it all together. That there is no "big picture", that we are all just here for naught.

Or we can look at it with some hope. And believe that God made us. That he gives us all of our needs and though we may not see everything that happens in the world as fair, in our eyes, it has a reason and purpose. There is an order to things and at the end of it all, if we live good kind lives and do the right things, love god we'll be alright. I believe that some thing in life are way beyond reason and rationale. Some things just exist, you just have a feeling that this is how it is. Our higher levels of thinking are nothing compared to God, he made all this. He made it all. And bit by bit, day by day we are chipping away at the tip of the iceberg of all the knowledge of this world. People are so proud that they'd rationalize God out of existence that accept that we are not at the top of the cosmic food chain. How can we put all of our faith in man when we are so feeble? I dont know, i just couldn't see myself living such a dank existence believe in nothing and just living day to day

I know i said it before but the whole movie i was thinking about Pascal's Wager. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pascal's_Wager. To believe in God and do the right thing costs nothing. You have nothing to lose, yet everything to gain. But to believe in nothing, is a big wager. Because if its all said and done and when God comes in those clouds of glory you will have lost everything. God doesnt ask much of us at all. If we love him and love each other most things just fall in place anyway. Everything God asks of us are things accepted as right by almost every single group of people regardless of color or creed.

aw well, its getting late. And i have to be up in the morning

Buenas noches

Julian

5 hot things Fall edition

Ok, its officially fall. Days are markedly shorter and its getting kinda nippy out, at night mostly, but cold none the less. So as i wind down this weekend, another good one btw, I just wanted to talk about the biggest/hottest things on my mind right now.

-Music-

I found a lot of good music this past week. Fool's Gold, the XX, the Where the Wild Thing Are sound track, a Toro y moi cover and some Bolero stuff. So i dont have one hot track on my mind, i do how ever have a cool Vid of Grizzly Bear and

Victoria from Beach House. enjoy

[too bad its on the lame Twilight soundtrack]

-Magazine-
the October issue of GQ is pretty good. I liked the interview with Spike Jonze alot. You kinda get into what this dude is about, even though he eludes almost every question; it kinda just gets me even more excited about seeing Where the Wild Things Are, The story about football players and brain damage is good too. Im not done, but again Im reminded Why I like that magazine. Its not just for fashion and cool stuff

-Phone-

i got a Blackberry tour!

Praise Jah! its been too friggin long. I was stuck with that LG venus for damn near 2 yrs

good riddance slut

-Clothes-

I got the leather jacket i been waiting for. Its from Levi's and its black. I bought the wrong size last month and waited a while to see if they got any different sizes. I was temped to get a brown one earlier today and just return the black, but i thought about the price difference and also about how bad ass black leather jackets can be, when worn and fitted right. Brown is cool, but that black is gonna be killin in a few weeks

-Spring 2010 line-

I know I got two clothing posts, but what ever.

I was looking through the 2010 spring collections and found something that really looked awesome. The Patrik Ervell collection was really awesome.

follow the link for more...

http://men.style.com/fashion/collections/S2010MEN/review/PERVMEN