Melancholy

Dang,

I made it through the first two years of med school without getting "med student disease", that hypochondiriasis [lol thats a word for ya] where whatever disease or syndrome you study you are convinced you have. Well I guess my streak is over lol, ok not seriously because though I genuinely feel pretty melancholy nowadays i know its just a phase, but yeah. Im on psych rotation so we always check for depression and suicidal thoughts, and in doing so we look for the major symptoms. I'll spare you the laundry list of symptoms, cause any bum off the street is pretty aware and discerning enough to see when someone is depressed.

Now im not self diagnosising depression, at all, im not depressed. Last year I thought maybe I was, but it was just a natural reaction due to the stresses i was exposed to at the time. I feel that im partially in the same place, I have stress out the wazoo, and im pretty sleep deprived so that is a major factor. Then i also think that adjusting to my new life in the hospital and some of the changes in my personal life will take some time for me to get acostumbrado [i like saying the Spanish word better lol].

Yeah I think all things take time to get adjusted too. Major life changes come take a while to settle in. And I mean hey, Im starting this big new chapter and I wanna enjoy it but sometimes i find that when the time to enjoy comes, all i wanna do is lay in bed or stay in the house, but who knows. I'll probly snap outta it soon, cause my malancholia is not hardly clinical. I've made it through much tougher patches in the past, and i can make it through this. Besides everyone on my rotation says im pretty chipper, all the time, so i guess im not wearing it on my sleeve. I'll be ok, no me preocupado and you shouldn't be either.

well till later
Peace&love
Julian